Okay, so I took my porgress test today...at least my biggest fear wasn't realized.
The results surprised me...my speaking and reading were scored roughly equally, but I'd have sworn I did much better at speaking than at reading.
They told me I do better once I relax.
I realized today why exams freak me out so much.
I have low blood sugar. It wasn't diagnosed until I was in college. Before it was diagnosed, I would prepare for a test and then get stressed out and have my blood sugar crash.
And when my blood sugar crashes, I can't remember anything. I mean ANYTHING. Which is not a good thing when taking a test. So I bombed a lot of tests before I got it diagnosed and figured out how to deal with it.
So now the total blank out doesn't happen, but the nervousness around tests has never gone away. I still expect to forget everything, no matter how prepared I am.
Anyway, it is done. I can carry on a conversation. I can read an article. My teacher says I am where I am supposed to be in order to get to where I need to be.
And now I can take tomorrow off. Thanks Vets! Especially Sez, my personal favorite vet.